Thursday, January 12, 2012

Middle of the Road News

Early in Dec I was visiting family in CA. My sister, Stacia, noticed a lump on my throat - she told me it looked like an Adam's apple.  We saw a nurse in our home ward that Sunday and she said it was probably a goiter.  So I tried to push it out of my mind for the rest of the week I was home visiting family - hoping that it was just a goiter (even though a goiter sounds so gross - at least according to Tangled)

I came home and from there I've had several appts with Doctors, got an ultrasound, had a biopsy, went on antibiotics, more appts, and several tests.

Pressure. . .

Then I had to deal (I shouldn't just say I, Craig had to deal with a lot of this himself and that was so hard for him) with lost ultrasound reports, inconclusive results and a misplaced disc with the ultrasound pictures that kept delaying things.

More stress . . .

The Specialist pretty early on narrowed it down to one of three things - swollen lymph node (which the specialist was pretty certain it wasn't, but I was put on antibiotics "just in case"), thyrogossal duct cyst, or a tumor.  But it took several weeks (almost a month) to get some real answers because the Specialist's equipment couldn't read the ultrasound disc, then the report was missing; once they got the report it was inconclusive. . . . Oh my gosh - just thinking about it makes me frustrated.

Finally I found out that is was a cyst, relief finally.

I thought I was coping with the whole crazy situation pretty well, but I didn't realize how much pressure I was feeling until the confirmed that it was a cyst - then the weight just lifted off.  Craig was going nuts with the waiting game and for him too it was so good just to finally know something.

I still have to have surgery to have the cyst removed.  So it wasn't the best news (swollen lymph node), but certainly not the worst (tumor), and while I'm still pretty nervous about having surgery (a first for me) I'll take middle of the road news.

Anyways - how's that for an update?  Crazy, no?

I'm just so glad that finally we have some solid news and that we know how to take care of this issue now.  Waiting seemed like it went on forever (it felt like a month went by in between each appt)

Also I did think that if it was something really serious (tumor) how would I tell people? A blog post or FB posting would have been an awful way to tell friends (but feels ok for this middle ground news).  I decided that if it was something serious I probably would have sent out an email to my close friends (is it weird that now that an email feels more personal?) I knew that phone calls would have been too much to handle for all at one time, and a text feels too informal and short for news like that. . . . I don't know.  What is a good way to share important news with dear friends spread all over the country now that blog, FB and twitter have taken over?

Also it made me really miss the good days when we could just get together and hang out.


Jaclyn said...

I am so sorry you have had all this to deal with! Health is always a sensitive subject and I can tell you from some of my health set backs this past year (or past 5) it really does get stressful and frustrating and there is no "good" way to tell people. I understand the dilemma, text, phone, blog, Facebook, (or to tell people at all)? You're right, in person is obviously best but not an option in so many cases.

Good luck with everything, with surgery, with recovery, etc. I am so glad you have a wonderful husband to help support you.

The Zwahlens said...

Geez, you had me really nervous as I was reading and I am so glad it was middle of the road news. Aren't you glad for Stacia noticing it? We did the what is this lump?, diagnosis process, and cyst removal thing a year ago with Sam so I understand the pressure and stress. Hope that your surgery goes smoothly and quickly!

Sarah said...

I'm so sorry for the news of surgery. I'm grateful it's not a tumor, however!
We will pray for things to go as smoothly as possible.
I get what you mean about emails, texting, facebook, etc. and I miss you too!!!!!
Love you beautiful Shara!

Sara Lyn said...

So glad it's a cyst instead of a tumor! But sorry you'll have to go through surgery. And how awful to have to worry for all that time!!! You'll be in my prayers for your surgery. (Craig, too.) :)

Elaine Shandra said...

Oh my! What a difficult adventure for you! I'm glad it's middle of the road news though! You'll be in my prayers.

ccarlile said...

I know exactly how you feel. On my mission I found a lump on my throat, and it took a long time to figure it out. At first I thought it was a cyst, but it took a few months to determine it wasn't. After 4 months of trying to figure it out, the doctor told me they could do a biopsy, or just remove it. I opted to just remove it. When they went in they found an enlarged lymphnode (they found 3 more but left them in because they thought removing 4 would be too many). Thankfully it wasn't cancerous.

Anyway, the point is, I know how you feel, and if your surgery is like mine, don't be too nervous, it isn't that bad, and the recovery is quick. I thought getting my wisdom teeth extracted was worse.

Katie said...

I got a little woozy reading the beginnings of this post, so I can't feel bad saying that I felt a lot of relief that you have a cyst and not something I may consider worse. I'm glad you've gotten that figured out and HOW ANNOYING it took them so long. I miss you guys a lot. (Especially lately.) <3

Carina said...

Oh, my goodness, Shara! I had no idea you were going through all of this! I'm sorry you're going to have surgery, but so glad to hear it's nothing super serious. You will be in my prayers--please keep us updated as to when it happens.

I have no idea what to say about how to tell people stuff like this in the current day and age. I guess just go with your gut, and think about who you are trying to tell and how they would react? It's a puzzler, that's for sure.

You are amazing. But you already knew that.

La Vita Bella said...

Okay, this is weird. I posted a comment here, but I just looked at this post again and it's not here! So, again, I'm so sorry to hear that you had to go through all this, but SO glad it's a cyst and nothing more serious. I hope the surgery goes well! :)

Kira said...

Waiting is the worst. I am glad it is what it is. I hope you recover super quick.

Kirsti said...

So sorry about the stress, so glad it's not as serious as it could have been! Oh my goodness! I think a personal email would be best of those options, in this day and age...we'll be praying for you! Miss you both!